Let us put it this way: last monday my life changed in a way I would never have imagined. Overly dramatic much? Maybe. But it was a pretty big deal. On Monday I decided I would not be joining the stream of thousands of my fellow 2014 High School graduates, happily flowing from the abyss of high school to the sunny college of their dreams. I will be graduating, but I won’t be starting college.
|This is a disclaimer.|
I have a lot of explaining to do. First of all, I am not going because I don’t like college. On the contrary, college is a rather beautiful dream of mine. I’ve been planning on it since around the time I learned to read in kindergarden and have been dreaming of it since I found my inner nerd in eleventh grade. So what in the world is holding me back?
What I am Not Doing and Why
Okay, I have a few more clarifications to make. I still plan on going to college someday, just not right now. I may graduate a lil late, but you know what? I can handle that.
Why this sudden change? I wish I could take credit for the idea. I wish I could tell you that I looked at all my options, did a ton of research, got accepted to amazing universities, then turned everything aside to spend a year pursuing my dreams. But you know, that wouldn’t be the full truth. I DID pursue college to the best of my ability, I was accepted into a few schools that I loved, and I did research gap years in my own time – but the adventure that lies before me now, I can’t take credit for it.
|Life is not a one way street.|
I don’t have time to get into the whole story now ( saving it for later), but I can assure you that I attribute this whole thing to God’s arranging. Without his sovereign hand, I would never be where I am today. Without the assurance that I am in his hand, I would never be able to throw away my dream of starting college without even glancing back for a second. Why am I doing this? I guess my answer would have to be: I am trying to follow the Lord wherever He leads me.
What I am Doing
Well, I am taking a year off before I go to college. I don’t have set plans yet, but I do have lots and lots of ideas. This is something that Europeans commonly call a GAP YEAR. I dunno, gap isn’t a very pretty word. Others cite the fact that GAP YEAR makes it seem like your taking a break from your education, whereas in reality your doing quite the opposite: spending some time in the real world to learn whole bunks about the universe, where you are in it, where you want to be in it, etc… So those folks tend to call it a BRIDGE year. Unfortunately my highly competitive self doesn’t like that either. To me it seems like BRIDGE year would be for people who weren’t ready for college, people who needed more time to get smart before they entered university. Call me conceited; I don’t like that thought.
I guess I am going to all it my ADVENTURE YEAR. Not that other years haven’t been an adventure, but this year will be particularly special, because I will be doing things I never imagined I would be doing at my age. I will be trying anything and everything in an adventurous quest to live outside the average ( as NYT so aptly put it, to “break the cycle of cradle to college to cubicle to cemetery”).
Guess what? I am going to have amazing adventures and record them here – so that you can enjoy and hopefully learn from a little girl whose biggest fear is being average.