I should be studying for the last big test of my high school years. But i’d rather be scouring old photos and journals. I am a bit sentimental, I think this blog has established that fact pretty well.
As I was rereading some old journals last night I realized that throughout high school I seemed perpetually confused about one thing or another. Sometimes in the midst of tumultuous events I would become angry with God, wondering why he let certain things happen. It is kind of embarrassing to admit, seeing as God is all knowing and all powerful and yet I still tended to point my finger at him and tell him how I thought things should have happened. But now that I can look back and see the big picture, I realize that the Lord was guiding me and caring for me in every single confusing and happy and tragic and normal and weird and everysinglesituation.
It reminds me of Jacob. He didn’t exactly have an easy life. He had to run away from his brother, he was cheated by his uncle, his beloved son disappeared, and the wife whom he loved died in childbirth, etc… and yet at the end of his life he testified that God had shepherded him ALL the days of his life. That means that in all those hard situations the Lord still knew what he was doing and was still CARING for Jacob in a sweet way.