I’m so free I might cry.

10 more days until I fly away to Wales. I couldn’t be more excited. My visa came in the mail yesterday. That means that all the paperwork is DONE! Wait…who am I kidding? Adulthood is just one big battle with paperwork. But a short break will be welcomed.

Now all I have to do is pack up and say my last goodbyes. Packing got a tad bit more complicated since my family just found out that they might be moving from our large house to a small condo in two weeks. Life is a crazy thing.

The fact that they are moving across town really shook up my packing process. I am not just packing my clothes and leaving the rest of my belongings strewn across my bedroom. That wouldn’t be fair to them. I am attempting to pack almost all my stuff and leave them just one or two boxes to store.

Question: how do you pack up your life into just two suitcases? 

Answer: you throw most of it away (and by throw away I mean donate it to a thrift store with a good cause). 

In the past couple of weeks I have lightened myself considerably.

  • I’ve gotten rid of almost half of my clothes.
  • That collection of every single note, letter, and birthday card that I have received since I was eight years old, yeah, all that had to go.
  • I disposed of all the knick knacks and souvenirs that I’ve collected over the years.
  • I raided my gorgeous intellectually stimulating and inspiring library. I sold or donated all but my most sentimentally valued 10 or so books.

Last week I posted about how pursuing one dream means giving up a few others. This week that post became very real as I threw away things I thought I would never get rid of like my first baby doll, old paintings, and my beloved library.

I have to be realistic. I am moving to Wales for college.

No room for a library there. 

Afterward I want to travel the world.

Can I bring a bookshelf as my carry on? 

Then I plan to attend a two year christian training in Southern California.

You don’t have happen to want to store my boxes for free do you?

And finally I dream of spending my life traveling to the ends of the earth or wherever else the Lord would send me. I’m making a fairly safe bet that I won’t be living in a medieval castle filled with extra nooks and crannies just calling for STUFF to be filled with.

iPhone case adventure is out there
Random interlude: meet my new iPhone case.

So you see, my lifestyle is no longer compatible with my book hoarding memorabilia pack rating tendencies. No worries, I’m not planning to move anywhere that doesn’t have a library within reasonable distance. I can store memories in my heart (oh and on my computer… same thing right?). And let’s face it, I’m probably never going to miss the clothes and other bits and pieces that I’ve kept in boxes for years and finally tossed.

So I have declared a war on all STUFF. There is actually a kind of estrogen high that comes from throwing things away. When the high is gone and the crash comes I may or may not fall back in tears and regret some of my harder decisions (aka MY BOOKS…OH MY DEAR SWEET BOOKS!). But I know this was a necessary step toward my dreams.

I am light and ready to fly.

Author: Susanna

I'm Susanna, a 20-year-old Christian girl incorrigibly addicted spontaneous adventures. My first dream was to become a pioneer. Unfortunately, I was born a couple centuries late, so I've decided to read, cook, run, and travel the world until my time machine is finished. You'll mostly likely find me getting into trouble and/or eating licorice. I am currently blogging the misadventures of a middle-school teacher in training. Come join me on my quest to become the next Ms. Frizzle!

16 thoughts on “I’m so free I might cry.”

  1. Minimalist life is certainly an interesting journey. The fact that I only live at home for 5-6 very scattered weeks means I usually only carry my “must haves”, which of course includes my mini library. I don’t know how you were able to say goodbye to your library… My parents have graciously allowed me to keep all my bookshelves up in my own room. Books are the one thing I can’t say goodbye to.

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    1. Books were one of the hardest things to toss and I never would have done it except that my parents are downsizing and won’t have room to store them for me. I like to think that each of the books that made such a huge impression on me will land in the hands of some other young person that they can inspire.

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  2. I take my hat off to you throwing your stuff away. It just makes you feel so much more free. (But I couldn’t do the book thing. It would most likely destroy me.) It’s so super exciting that everything is snowballing to the beginning!

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    1. Thanks so much Victoria! It is truly an exciting time. If there was anything less than a completely new life at stake, I don’t think I would have been able to get rid of my books : ) But I had read them all anyway and now I just hope they all end up in loving homes in the hands of impressionable young people that they can inspire. In fact, giving your books to a used book store can be a very romantic occasion if you think about it in the right way : )

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  3. I get super sentimental and attached to all of my stuff. Lately I’ve been trying to get rid of all the things I know I don’t need (my room is literally the size of a shoe box, and it’s getting pretty full), but whenever I go through everything (the books especially) I see all of the memories wrapped around the material objects, and I can’t get myself to throw them out. Letting go is something I need to work on.
    You are so inspiring, Susanna, in so many ways. You have a goal for your life, and you are able to see the big picture, and get rid of the things that don’t help you get there.
    I loved reading this post 🙂


    1. Thanks so much Hannah! I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes I have a hard time throwing away old broken down shoes, even if they are completely unwearable, because when I look at them I remember all the places I went and fun times I had. Throwing away stuff can be hard, but I end up feeling light and happy when I actually do it!


  4. I’m so proud of you! I also really need to lighten up, but I haven’t been able to bring myself to do it all at once. I guess it’s all more opportunity to learn to be one spirit with the Lord 🙂

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    1. Thanks so much for commenting! It is so good to hear from you. I guess with this big move it was easy to lighten up because I have such wonderful adventures to look forward to. I hope you are doing well!


  5. Wow, your war on stuff is impressive! Even though I’m not moving anywhere, I feel like I want to have a war on stuff too. (Although, all of my stuff is not at my house, so the war on stuff will have to wait. Blah.) Have awesome adventures as you get ready to move to Wales, and be safe and all that good stuff.


  6. That is such an amazing commitment. I love all my things, but sometimes I do wonder what it would be like without it all. I could never get rid of my books! I’m so impressed with your resolve.

    Hope your move(s) go well:D


    1. Thanks Sunny! I really appreciate your enthusiasm and encouragement. It isn’t easy, particularly the bit where I sold my books, but I am pretty sure it will be worth it in the end!


  7. I always forget that I can buy stuff there too! If I forget something or can’t fit it in my suitcase, I just make a mental note to buy it upon arrival. Reminding myself of that always calms me down 🙂


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